When it hurts to care – Psalm 31:7
Psalm 31:7 I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul.One of God’s gifts to me is the ability to care about and pray for those who are ill. But right now, my mother is at the end of her life, and another key person in my life recently received bad health news. I also follow the Facebook journey of a courageous 12-year old girl, Jessie Rees, who suffered from two inoperable brain tumors. She passed away a few days ago. I am sad.
But it’s interesting that in my sadness, I’ve come to appreciate how God works my faith steps. Before I decided that God’s purpose for me was greater than my own purpose, I had a hard time being close to people because it hurt that they might die or leave me. God opened my understanding (and healed me) so that I could come to terms with that and step into the gifts of compassion he planned for me.I started to feel that familiar hurt earlier this week after visiting with Mom’s medical team and then learning of the child’s passing. But it’s just like the Lord to order my steps because I returned to a powerful hospital ministry over the weekend. I also realized that I have to lay my burdens on the Lord. I can’t do it on my own.
Whenever you feel like it hurts too much, remember that the Lord cares about the anguish of your soul. Go to him.