Before I know it, sin drips from my mouth and floods my mind. Oh the struggle.
Romans 7:22-23 I love to do God’s will so far as my new nature is concerned; but there is something else deep within me, in my lower nature, that is at war with my mind and wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. In my mind I want to be God’s willing servant, but instead I find myself still enslaved to sin. So you see how it is: my new life tells me to do right, but the old nature that is still inside me loves to sin. Oh, what a terrible predicament I’m in! Who will free me from my slavery to this deadly lower nature? Thank God! It has been done by Jesus Christ our Lord. He has set me free.
My current struggle is in not easily recognizing the extent of my sinfulness. I can easily preach it, but continuous righteous living eludes me.
Ouch. It hurts. I reveal this because I love the Lord with all my heart, mind and soul, but the sinner in me wins. It's the same struggle the Apostle Paul wrote about in the Scriptures.
I recognize that being sorry for sin isn't enough. Genuine repentance from deep in the heart/mind/soul has to cut to the core so God sees a transparent heart. I can't allow anything to can hide in chambers of iniquity.
The solution is to remove my veil and ask God to show me what has to change. I must stay connected through the word that sustains my daily life and through prayer in His holy presence.