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My Divine Note #11-07 - “Anyone out there feel lonely?

February 6, 2011
Isaiah 58:9 You will call out to me for help. And I will answer you. You will cry out. And I will say, 'Here I am.'

As a believer, I never take it for granted when God places people or circumstances in my path. I immediately stopped what I was doing when the following message caught my eye on one of my favorite social media sites:

“Anyone out there feel lonely?"

Yes. I fought a life-long battle with loneliness until I made that God-connection almost five years ago. I responded saying that I knew exactly how lonely feels - even under the best of circumstances. In my case, I have always had a supportive family, friends, hobbies and a job that I love. I always tried to do the right things like making a difference in my community, volunteering and caring for others. I have a good life.

But living a "perfect" or good life without knowing God plunged me into silent desperation, which led to painful loneliness even when I was with a room full of people that I knew well and liked. I was even lonely during times when I was extremely busy. I fought loneliness by planning my life. I even spent time with people who made a difference in my life, and everything in my life seemed perfect. It was not.

My heart yearned for something more. People in my family knew God. I wondered if he was real even though early in my life I accepted the gift of Christ during a summer camp trip. Nevertheless, it took a deep valley experience for me to tell God that I could not do my life on my own. I surrendered my strong will to God. Life changed.

Now I know the reason that God created me. I am living a life very much on purpose and on God’s plan. While life will never be perfect, I no longer fight the terror of inner loneliness because I have a deeply intimate relationship with the God who created me. My life is significant now.

Loneliness is a distant memory.






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