My Divine Notes

Hebrews 5:7   While Jesus lived on earth, he prayed to God and asked God for help. He prayed with loud cries and tears to the One who could save him from death, and his prayer was heard because he trusted God.  There is only one way to move through the valley of unimaginable loss and angst:   Trust God in your deepest sorrow. Our Lord grieved and trusted his Father. We can do the same.

Psalm 112: 7   (The Voice) They will not be afraid when the news is bad because they have resolved to trust the Eternal.  “You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” ―  Anne Lamott Words pulled together in a string of sentences have the ability to shakeup lives. The sentences above did just that to me.   Feelings, stories, blog posts, conversations with God and rants have crossed my brain over the last nine months, but they refused to be permanently recorded until today. The fact is: My heart is broken. It’s broken in a million tiny pieces that can never be put ...

When it hurts to care – Psalm 31:7 Psalm 31:7 I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul. One of God’s gifts to me is the ability to care about and pray for those who are ill. But right now, my mother is at the end of her life, and another key person in my life recently received bad health news. I also follow the Facebook journey of a courageous 12-year old girl, Jessie Rees ,  who suffered from two inoperable brain tumors. She passed away a few days ago. I am sad. But it’s interesting that in my sadness, I’ve come to appreciate how God works my faith steps. Before I decided that God’s purpose for me was greater than my own purpose, I had a hard time being close to people because it hurt that they might die or leave me. God opened my understanding (and healed me) so that I could come to terms with that and step into the gifts of compassion he planned for me. I started to feel that familiar hu...

June 10, 2011 1 Timothy 6:6 Serving God does make us very rich, if we are satisfied with what we have. 7 We brought nothing into the world, so we can take nothing out. I put my life and belongings in the hands of strangers who make me uncomfortable when I fly. I don’t like traveling by airplane – I never have, and I never will. But I attended a professional conference in Chicago earlier this week, so I had no choice. While these strangers are in charge of my comfort and getting me to my destination, they also paint a scary picture. And, it’s all in the name of doing their job! They insist that passengers watch a video, but of course, most of us act like we’re ignoring it. I tried to ignore it until I heard these words, “In the event of water landing…”   What? A water landing?   I do not know how to swim! I tried to pull the terrible thoughts from my mind… But the real discomfort began when I heard these words: “In case of an emergency, leave all your carry-on items b...

June 1, 2011 Psalm 29:4 The Lord 's voice is powerful; the Lord 's voice is majestic. God has given me more instances of hindsight and ah ha moments than I care to reveal. I would rather not write this message, but… a few days ago. Well.   I felt melancholic...   I know the reason I felt that way, but it’s not necessary for me to reveal it in order to bring you this message. I made bad choices in my younger years – I wasn’t walking in God’s light. No excuses – that’s just my reality. And, the reality is that I am now facing those consequences. But the amazing thing is that I face consequences as I hang on to God. There’s one thing I’ve learned in my divine journey: I will not let go of God during my periods of regret. Back to my story, a few days ago I had one of those regret episodes, but before I wasted precious time feeling sorry for myself, God spoke to me.   I clearly heard him say, “But I am the only Love you will ever need!” It took my breath away! I tur...