Proverbs 19:3 We are ruined by our own stupidity, though we blame the Lord.
I am so glad that I finally told the Lord that I could not do life on my own. Since I was a child, I recall having an independent spirit and wanting to do things on my own. The same spirit continued throughout my life, I wanted to do things on my own and my way. So I left God out. Of course, when things went wrong, I’d blame God.
I didn’t even know God, but I still blamed him. My family loved God, so it’s not like I didn’t know he existed. As I look back, I realize how God carried me through all the messes, doubts and pain I encountered, which I blamed on Him.
Knowing God hasn’t made me perfect, but it has made me more in tune with myself and I also have more compassion for others. It also makes me more sensitive when I encounter people who don’t believe in God or people who believe in little gods who need answers to their questions. Regardless of how “perfect” our lives are and how much we study, research, and try to figure out the meaning of life, it doesn’t fall together until God touches our lives.
Hurt people won’t stop hurting themselves or others until they are wrapped in God’s healing love. Even people, who have accepted God’s freeing love, sometimes can’t release themselves.It’s complicated and at the same time, it's not. We all need the Light.