Skip to main content

Confidence through the tough times - Psalm 9:10


Written April-June 2011
Psalm 9:10 (GW) Those who know your name trust you, O LORD, because you have never deserted those who seek your help.
I know one thing for certain: God will hold my hand. Today I saw how frail human life is. My Mom is ill and if I start to let go of the peace that God gives me, I feel intense turmoil in my heart. Just as I start to fall, God steadies my heart. He steadies my heart by giving me the Scripture that I need to hang on.

Those deep times of communion with the Lord have given me the confidence to know that he is there even when times are hard for me. Certainly, I cannot live only for those deep moments with God. But those times when I clearly discern his hand in the everyday-ness of my life are the result of that bond.

If I didn't know God, I would not understand his presence in my life. He loves me regardless of the things I tend to do or say. He knows the journey I am on and he also knows when I am feeling tired and overwhelmed...

Reflection – Dec. 23, 2012
I wrote the note above between April and June of 2011. My mother passed away on Dec. 14, 2012. Through her journey, I discerned the presence and the hand of God. Mom’s journey was difficult but it was bearable. She didn't require continuous heavy medication and she never lost her ability to understand conversations or listen to her children. 
It was a poignant journey that I’m currently processing. I go through moments of grief mixed with relief and thankfulness that she’s no longer suffering. I have this peace that only God can provide because He directed the path. I felt deep strength and purpose as I witnessed God work for me and through me in Mom’s journey. I can only imagine how sweet it will be to experience my mother’s love in heaven. 
Labels:

Comments

  1. AnonymousJanuary 17, 2013 at 5:35 AM

    I went through grief when my godly Dad went to live in heaven. I understand. It is amazing how God in the end comforts us beyond measure. We walk through things but we are never alone.

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Sweet Sixteen

  Today is my spiritual birthday – the date that changed my entire life.  It’s the before and after life changing date when my eyes were  opened to the divineness of God. I’ve been on an exhilarating and sometimes uncomfortable journey  full of experiences I never imagined I could or want to handle. But the best part of my journey is how God expanded my closed “religious”  mind and views. The knowledge I have is but a drop in the cosmic (heavenly) bucket; and I’ve learned that I’m in no position to impose my views on  people of different faiths or no faiths. There’s room at the table for all of us. We are all welcome and loved! There’s always room at the table. My life has been about constantly getting myself out of comfort zones  I prefer…always hesitating but drawn to the next adventure. That fateful, ever evolving connection to God has powered everything  about my life. It has taken me from the depths of despair to the heights of love;  from the holy experience of helping loved ones
Post a Comment
Read more

When it hurts to care – Psalm 31:7

When it hurts to care – Psalm 31:7 Psalm 31:7 I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul. One of God’s gifts to me is the ability to care about and pray for those who are ill. But right now, my mother is at the end of her life, and another key person in my life recently received bad health news. I also follow the Facebook journey of a courageous 12-year old girl, Jessie Rees ,  who suffered from two inoperable brain tumors. She passed away a few days ago. I am sad. But it’s interesting that in my sadness, I’ve come to appreciate how God works my faith steps. Before I decided that God’s purpose for me was greater than my own purpose, I had a hard time being close to people because it hurt that they might die or leave me. God opened my understanding (and healed me) so that I could come to terms with that and step into the gifts of compassion he planned for me. I started to feel that familiar hurt e
4 comments
Read more

How to stay young and youthful all your life

How to stay young and youthful all your life Word of Instruction from Dr. Charles F. Stanley These are my notes from today's broadcast . Scripture: Psalm 92:12-15 Psalm 92: 12 Good people will prosper     like palm trees,     and they will grow strong     like the cedars of Lebanon. 13 They will take root in your house, LORD God,     and they will do well. 14 They will be like trees that stay healthy and fruitful,     even when they are old. 15 And they will say about you, “The LORD always does right!  God is our mighty rock.” Keep learning – a lazy brain is a decaying brain Keep loving – don’t be bitter Keep laughing – 😊 Keep leaving your past behind – don’t live in the rear-view mirror of your life Keep longing Keep dreaming about the future – it’s a matter of attitude Keep looking your best Keep laboring and working – there’s no retirement in the Bible Keep learning, depending, and trusting in the Lord Keep listening to God – to know
Post a Comment
Read more